Life has gotten through some changes. It aint gonna be the same as it used to be. Starting tomorrow, its all about independence. Humans are perhaps the most adaptive animals you can ever see. Well,for my case, I have learnt to adapt.
Time is really getting limited for me. Its starting to become a lil hard to keep things up. I have sacrifice several stuff in life to achieve my goals then.
Here's a list of stuff I must remove off my life.
-Stop being too involved in cca, I have to actually learn to delegate work now. They arent babies now, its time for them to all grow. Hence, I will have to learn to work from behind, approving stuff and sorts.
-Stop spending too much time in school as I can no longer afford to.
-Probably its a fate and curse that all ambitious people go through. One must remain solitary. I see people getting attached or so. Well, it may seem ideal. From the looks of it though, it seems i can't afford to. Love? Haha, it seems to be eating lots of time and possibly will hinder my goals if I wanna accomplish them. Hmm, it seems pretty ideal for one to have another person to care and shower concern. Let's put it this way though. I am rather convinced that when it comes to matters like this, I am totally out of luck. Haha, hence, i shall not longer think about this. Its not a privilege I am entitled to. We will just let things flow as they are. The right one? Probably will appear when its time to.
Sometimes, I really feel as if I am crumbling. There seems to be no salvation but to reduce my current state of living to a lower level of existence and meaning. It feels as though I am reprogramming myself against my will in order to survive. So many things to overcome, so many tough walls to break through. I am really tired, however, I can't choose to let them go.
A lil rant I must say about people's attitudes nowadays is that it absolutely sucks to the core!
Where is the level of dedication and pride in work?
Goals to accomplish:
-Lead the club in the right direction
.Re-establish the system on how the comm should work, they are getting spoilt.
.Work in the shadows
.Plan a few successful events, dominate the tea scene.
.Hit the papers once more.
.Groom a suitable team to carry on my will. Geez, i feel as though I am gonna die or something.
-Participate in Pesta Sukan
-Get my black belt in aikido
-Get my driving licence.
-Raise my GPA. Two paths, I fail to enter the uni of choice, I am in for 2.5yrs of pain.
Tch... I can't think of anymore. Well, its a tough road ahead. Time to ride it down the dirt path.