The Balance within the world is simply too wide.

Went to pray to granny this morning at the temple.
After which, had sun with moon for lunch.

Just some pic spam... Quality aint so good considering that its a phone cam.
After which, I spent hours making borscht, a russian beetroot stew. Unfortunately no one wanna try it...

Nothing much to comment. zzz

I hardly feel any sense of belonging nowadays... There isn't a group that I can really fit in.
Recently, I had a change in job scope for itp which I guess made quite a number of peeps jealous.
Of which, I begin to feel isolation, needed only for what I am capable of doing rather than as a person. I don't feel pretty much alive now. Probably can be partly demonstrated by the lack of constant tags in my tagbox. haha.
I hardly talked much online nowadays.
Well, I am still surviving.
Still have to survive despite being partially physically and mentally alone.
Whoever is reading this will find it hard to comprehend. Piece of advice, don't bother. Unless, your mind is pretty much tuned to my frequency.

Survived 4 days of hell. of which, i went through intense hunger and the pain at the knees and ankle joints.
Of which, I wasn't provided lunch and had to report early.
Just got home not long, its already 5plus in the morning. I havent slept for over 20hours. My eyes are already heavy as I type. Well, i learnt the harsh reality of a it retail business.

Don't wanna talk much. Of which, somethings really irks me. One, I am the 1 of the 2 single guy among the 8 itp students. (other guy's an otaku, naturally he is married to 2D.) During the show, I swear that the among of couples you can see is really ALOT.

On this last day, something fun n memorable happened. Dun know whether I was filled with irritation and eccentric-ness due to harsh working conditions, I did something really rash and silly.
There's a colleague of mine who likes a gal from another booth, hence he wanted to get her number and was hesitating. As if I was drunk (perhaps intoxicated due to lack of ventilation and food), i went up to her, said,''Sorry, I know this sounds really odd, but I got a friend who wants your number.'' and intro-ed them.

Well, Mr Bo-ji, aka now the groundtaker, apparently went soft on his knees and sunk to the ground. Can't blame him as it's his first time. Zzz... Its perhaps my first time I asked a stranger for a number and only to get the number for my friend...

Hmm... another thing I learnt within the past few days is that, if you can't exactly fit in, then you got no choice but to outgrow the strength of a herd in order to survive. Till then, I am waiting for itp to pass and regain control of my life.

Life pretty much seems like a tedious chore now.
If not for dad who gave me extra so I can opt not to eat budget rice, it would be living hell for me.
For days, I had been reduced into a zombie. That still has to go on for 40plus more days.
Really hate to admit this, but I am starting to miss my schooling days.
Tml's my off day, asked a few friends on whether they wanted to go out or perhaps meet for lunch.
Responses were... well, if I were to describe it as a guy who confesses to a gal, he would be rejected till the point whereby he would love to visit the nearest building and take a nice plunge.
Guess its lazing around the day at home for me.Who cares? Everyone has their own life.

I am really worried about the rate and direction the club is moving... SO much till the point I think about it daily, giving myself lots of mental burden.

I am feeling physically and emotionally drained. Its hard to put up a nice front whereby,''Hey! I am invincible! I been through the depths of pain and am back, normal and unharmed!"

Argh... If only there was a good dose of empty hand, whereby I can ki-ai to the fullest, I would be able to take the burden.

Survived day 2 of itp...
Life's in a total wreck for now, of which, I am suffering from poverty and fatigue.
I don't have time for my own personal stuff now.
Everywhere's taxing me...
Been retaking driving evaluation to no success.
Hate getting bothered by other stuff. Why can't people understand what I am going through?
I am disappointed by the way how things are going. What which is created may soon be crumbling. I guess nothing's meant to last long in this world. Things aren't going smoothly at all for me. Sometimes, I dunno whether to just cry it all out or simply smile till the point where I lost my sanity and simply bring myself to self-induced escapism.
I seem practically ignored. Souring within...